It’s true that your brain gets a hell lot confused when you travel too much in various time zones and do a tone of things in between, manage a lot of people, you have a tons of responsibility on your shoulder, you are trying to keep up to every commitment you made on this planet and be very responsive to everyone that needs you.
I am in that phase on my life when I am so tired doing so many things for everyone that at times it confuses me and I am unaware of my true purpose and also forget the difference between wrong and right and I lose the sense of time.
I had read it somewhere about the most harmful rays on this planet comes from our cellphone and I am a kind of person practically always available on cellphone and I kind of do every single thing from my phone. From my personal emails to work emails, calendars, alarm, grocery list, health status, stories and books, blogging, social media – you name it and I have everything on my phone. I change my phone every year as it’s all worn pout at the end of the year.
It never felt stressful or painful until off lately with this new job and a lot of emotional ups and downs that I feel it’s really wearing me out. I work for almost 12 hours a day and I cook daily – not because I am Indian and I have to – that’s a very wrong notion – mostly because I suffer from Chronic Urticaria – an autoimmune disease that is not a fan of my eating out – especially food with lot of preservatives and it shows it’s anger in a very bad way. I feel tired, I almost sleep on the wheel while driving back home and I have to either talk to someone on call or burst the music at full intensity to stay in senses.
Not to mention – I realized how addicted I was getting to social media and making my private life public for people to pick on it and be judgmental in the worst way. I actually had a few experiences kind of eye opener ones where I was able to see the true colors.
So I came up with a very good solution – DIGITAL DETOX 🙂
I disabled my Instagram account temporarily (Trust me I still dont have the heart to delete it completely mostly because a lot of memories shared there are just there and I have no other copy of it). Same applies to my facebook account and I will come to blog only once a day – may be in the evening and not visit it regularly.
I have been having a lot of anxiety and I had to cut it down somehow. The only medium open for me at the moment is email.
I plan on working on home improvements, watch some meaningful documentaries, take long walks and read good books. I have always loved full moon’s they are mystical and beautiful and I meditate on those days (you all should try – it really works)
I don’t promise to be here every day eventhough I have just returned to this blog after a very long break to save it from dying on me – will try my best 🙂
This is going to make my Spanish mother very happy and my Indian mother very sad haha!!
PS: those who follow me on social platforms – I dint block you :p I am just going off for sometime 🙂