I haven’t slept entirely the night that just passed by and here I sit in the office looking at myself in the computer screen, it’s still off so I can actually see myself, my reflection, and I really look all messed up. Noticeable dark circles below my eyes which are probably not red but have hint of redness in it.
It’s a busy day and I don’t have the strength to look up and start working. I have a small pillow on my chair, it keeps my back relaxed and saves it from hurting too much. I am literally drooling on that pillow today. Seems like I can sleep any moment, any time. I can see my Boss speaking something to me, don’t know, the words are refusing to enter my ears. What’s worst that starting a day with a meeting, sitting with a coffee in my hand I was just staring at everyone and then came a question “What do you think Kruti?” ….. And with a jolt I am like “I will think on it” lie, a total lie, I never listened to anything you all said.
Normally when I have nothing good to do with myself I wander to some faraway places LOL, yes like literally from the existence of the universe to Light, emanating solar system, encompassing, startling soul stares and I can even see deep illuminating flare. This is too much!! This is called a state of semi-consciousness. Something in which I AM right now. Ok i wont put a song today with this post, people say the choice of my songs SUCKS!!!!
Ok now, so that I have nothing better to write today I will just rewrite a poem that I wrote on a piece of tissue paper yesterday night:
The night is dark and everything is still
I can see those bats flying above me
Thoughts of you fill my mind
A picture of you flashes in my eyes
A secret love, a silent tear
Inside I break, tattered and torn
Torrents of heartache when I see you smile
Far or near you live in my heart
Can I get a day to hold you once?
The day we met, I didn’t believe in you
The days that came, got me close to you
Here I sit, where the wind is cold
Overwhelmed and lost, in the eyes colored in Blue
But I believe in life that transcends
Magic will arrive and make its amendments