why are long distance relationships so full of insecurities….even when you have a world full of trust you still tend to become insecure at every step in life……the distance seems longer and you start losing faith in yourself…. off lately i have been undergoing many such hallucinations……it kinds of stresses me out. I dont know what to believe and when to believe. The care and concern remains but with a fear in the corner of heart. Life is so damn confusing that i have stopped trusting my own instincts. I feel positive at one go and suddenly this alter ego jumps in….it makes me feel bad…it makes me feel like a loser. Is this how the relations are? The pain which comes along is understood only by the one undergoing it. The beautiful memories slowly have started disappearing and fear has masked the real me!!!! i am searching for myself…….I have lost me …….it is a war between what i feel and what i think…….the most difficult war i must say….whether to trust the mind or trust the heart is a question which arises in here.