School Days had been one of the most memorable days of my life……when i see my confused and totally lost reflection in the mirror today my mind juggles back to my school days………..the most beautiful days of my life….when I was happy and most importantly I was ME. Time moved on and meeting new people gave altogether new experiences. Some good and some bad..But they changed me a lot…and slowly I developed myself in to someone whom even I don’t recognize today. Back in school I had cooking as a subject where they taught us new dishes and I used to love cooking. I actually have gone to crossword so many times to buy cooking books and then have tried new innovative dishes home…….look at me today. I hate entering kitchen. I do enter in sometimes but it totally depends on my mood. When I look deeper in to myself I realize that I still love to cook but only when I am happy. The confusions of this world has developed an alter ego inside me. I was a jolly cheerful child back in school and now I hate to answer phone calls. It kind of irritates me. I have started to love my loneliness more than anyone else. If friends call me to hang out somewhere all I have is a “NO”. When I sit alone on my terrace the flashes of past rotates around me. I have made people happy……I have done a lot for friends with bad returns most of the time. It kind of brings a tear in to my eyes. Today I am a girl who gets emotional even with little bit affection shown to her as she has been struggling a lot in her life. I have few friends now but they are all faithful ones unlike my past and I am happy for it. I have a boy friend whose the cutest boy on this planet and I am happy with me minusing few social issues and problems we share (hope that would end soon). But still deep down I still cannot see a happy reflection on ME. I have a nice job but I am not satisfied with it. May be this was not what I wanted to be. Still I believe I am a fighter and I would fight my destiny. ….. new year ne thoughts new resolutions new plans and most importantly wishing a wedding bell………best of luck to me……….